Mom, I want to be a drag queen

If I told you I have found something that truly makes me happy and fills me up as a person? What if that thing made me feel complete as a person, made me a released soul, made me feel unstoppable? Would that make you happy? And what if that one thing wasn't fully accepted by society? What if you couldn't totally understand what it is about but the only thing you knew was that it makes me happy? Would you still support me? I know that't not the kind of thing that you would ever want for your son; I know it isn't prestigious, I know it isn't something that would make better than any other mother, I know it isn't the kind of thing that screams "perfect son", but it is the kind of thing that requires effort and I wouldn't mind it at all. I don't mean I wanna quit my studies, not at all, but I don't want you to treat it as a hobby. It allows me to express myself; it is the only way to fully let my creativity flow. It is a way of art that I really want to try, and I want to make sure that everythings ok with this. This doesn't mean I'm asking you to let me do it (you know I'm going to do whatever I want no matter what), but I don't want to be hiding from anyone, not anymore. There's no need. I wish, even though you might not understand it 100%, you will still let me be happy. Mom, I want to be a drag queen. It doesn't mean I want to be a woman, it doesnt mean that since today im going to start wearing woman clothes or anything like that. This means that I find it a really interesting experience which lets me feel free to do whatever I want. There are no rules about it, it's fun and involves hard work and motivation. I have made a decision after a loooooong time of thinking. It has been a "weird" process where I have gotten to change my mind about drag (which I though that it was just men pretending to be women and trying to be women), discover that it envolves different types of art and skill and even fashion. I've finally tried it a couple of times and, surprisingly, there wasn't a "bad" feedback from people. Young people that might not be "that brilliant or intelligent" get the idea of fun and freedom, and I feel pretty comfortable everything about it. I have discovered that, together with writing, this makes me feel happy and that I actually contribute to the world, not just by being a student and do what I am supposed to be doing at my age, which I repeat, I like my studies and have nothing to do with is, I just want you to kinda get the idea that it isn't like playing video games or some other type of hobbie, that this is something serious that it is kind of a part of me. I have decided to write this down because I think that, in this conversation, I just wouldn't be able to fully express myself correctly and I'm not sure if I would be able to front it yet, but I wanted to let you know it before I actually started doing anything serious, which I want to start doing now. You might probably have expeted it or something like that, or just have found everything that I have related to it hidden somewhere home. Again, I hope you kind of get the idea of this and support me (not support me but just let me do my thing while I know there's nothing wrong between you and this) and if theres everything you didn't understand, just let me know. I won't be angry at all if you don't get it, I have been 18 years thinking that it was something that it actually was not and look at me know, something that I "didn't like" turns out to be thing that allows me to feel free. 

Thanks for everything you both have done for me. I love you both.