What if...?

Trust me, I won't go to your funeral. I will never help you when you need me, not anymore. Once the night comes, don't expect me to turn on a light so you can follow the road I walk. After your classes have ended, I won't be waiting for you on the outside of the building, with a cup of hot chocolate and my my eyes focused on the clock counting the seconds. I won't hold your towel for you anymore when we go to the beach... if we still went to the beach. Nothing else will happen between us. No more moments to share, no more likes to get on our photos, not even my voice pronouncing your name, slowly, in a lovely way, just before we start making out. No more nights hugging each other. No more tears, or smiles, or questions. I just need you to know that everything has ended for us. But, has it ended for you? Do you really think that you won't find another person to spend some time? I know you don't, but still, you think you won't be able to enjoy it, and that's bullsh*t. You just need some time to get sh*t together, and some more time to quit expecting things from the people. Once you have done that, the time for people to fail you will start, but dont worry, it won't hurt you as much as you think it does. Eventually, you will even think about the good things that a twisted fate has brought you, and you will learn from them. But, once you start learning, what happens? What happens once you have started creating a model, a figure, an idea, of what everything means to you? Well, then sh*t happens again, and everything turns into dust. After the fire burst the house, only the ashes remain, but it is your choice to start building the house that once you made out of nothing, or forget everything you have learnt and start all over. It is then when you really think, why didn't it work? Was it because of me? Was it because of the way I did it? Those are two different things. It can be because of you, but not because of the way, or viceversa, so before you truly start all over again, try to guess what went wrong, and then you will be able to decide what to do with your life. But remember, if you want to guess something you need to think before, and there is no way you can think if your mind is full of other things, so let the time past before, because nothing good will happen if you dont let the time that it took you to build that house come to your mind and remind how exciting was to start building the place that once you lived in.